My grief is like a tsunami that threatens to engulf me
It appears from nowhere and disappears as quickly as arriving
I let it wash over me
Never knowing how long it will reside
I let the tears fall down my face
And strangely they give me comfort
This is the pain of loss and I want to feel it
I can’t turn them off
And I don’t want to….
Bring you sharply back into focus
Memories come flooding back
I’m trying to understand why you couldn’t stay?
Why you had to leave
The pain feels almost unbearable now
Did I let you down?
I’m so so sorry if I did
Maybe I didn’t want to see it?
I wish you could come and sit with me a while
I could hold your hand
I would tell you how much you are loved
How sorry I am that I turned away from you
I reminisce ….
The unbearable pain…
It’s raw and it hurts like hell
Fleetwood Mac plays on the radio
I smile at the memory
I feel guilty that I felt a split second of joy
I cry at the loss of a sister
The loss of a mother
The loss of a daughter
My heart aches
Come and sit with me a while
Let me know it’s okay
You had to leave
You couldn’t stay
People will say ‘she’s at peace now’
But there’s no peace for those left behind
And what if’s….
Grief affects us in many different ways and it can help to write things down in a poem or a journal or just talk to someone. If you are struggling with the loss of a loved one The Lighthouse Counselling Partnership can help. Please contact our counsellors here: tlcpartnership.com